Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness

[Original Entry date from my Private Journal : July 23, 2005]

I am extremely sad...sigh...    last thursday, July 21, my sister called informing us that daddy needs to go back to the hospital, they have to confine him since he feels very weak and his cbc - hemoglobin is very low. He will be staying there till tomorrow but he is still under observation. Please do continue to pray for him and for my mom...She feels so heavyhearted right now. I'm wondering what's on her mind right now before she goes to sleep, as you all know I work in the night shift and I can't be with her to at least give her comfort...she's all alone right now... I'm feeling dumpish right now.      Before I left the house, my mom was on the phone talking to my aunt, I heard her cry....I didn't know what exactly they are talking about since I'm already rushing to fix my things since it's already 9:10 and I'm still at the house. Tomorrow, I'll find out what it was but I'm sure it is about my dear Daddy.   Aarrrgghhhh...  I'm so grumpy right now! It's actually affecting my work and by the way, this is my last night here in MAS since me and Ann will be moving to MOST. It's our day off later then the training starts monday. What's so irritating is that our css is so annoying, he did an IPS with me a while ago and obviously he knows that I'm not in the mood then he kept on telling me very BAD and CORNY jokes  and it's just so annoying! While he was telling me lame jokes, in my mind I'm already thinking of what I can possibly do to make him shut up.. I was already thinking of getting a duct tape or a needle and I want to sew his lips together so that he can no longer open his mouth! I know it's mean but..he so....okay, let's just drop it.  I'm a good girly now.   Anyway, it's a good thing that I'm seated where I'm seated right now..hahaha...it actually makes me feel better. And I'm with happy people here, so, it's actually helping....I wish everything will be back to normal.....